My first Everything.

Looking back

You've always been my world

The first boy I loved,

The first boy I wanted to kiss

So many first

Because you were always there

Maybe thats why leting go was so hard

I had to go against every thing 

That I had built in three years

But now your back

Or so the gossip colloums that are teenage girls minds

Have told us all

I know this is bad new to some

Good to many more

And hell's freezeing again

For the select few that are my friends

Who worry about me again

Going into my state of shock, and emptyness

Who fear I will return to the shell

That took a year to break

Just enough time for you to return

So now what?

Do I go and rebuild everything that I've broken?

Do I just go and act like you never left?

Do I go back to my world were there's only you?

Do I go back to forgetting that the world moves on without you

No matter how painfull it is. 

Do I return to my state of mind where  you'll always be here?