I'm a Mess.

Right now in my life, there is absolutely to much going on. It's all seeming to just come down on me at once. It's this great big pounding force, I feel like I'm trapped in an ocean, and every time I think I've had enough, or I think I'm safe, the ocean kicks back at me, and slams me into the rocks over and over. There is to much going on, I don't know what to say anymore. I don't know what to do or write, every time I try to write it's never right. It's never what I want, and worse, I can't think about one thing long enough to get the emotions, or what I need to say out. Everything all comes out at once, if I open the doors, and try to deal with one thing, the flood overwhelms me, and I'm overcome. I don't know what to do, so I shut the flood gates back, and bottle it all up. And I can feel it everyday, I know that someday it will kill me. Because I can't deal with anything at all. Because it's never one thing. I'm a mess, and a wreck.
Sincerely me.